In the spring of 2020, I was desperately trying to get a kidney transplant. My kidney function had fallen below 20% and I became eligible for a transplant. Sixteen people offered me one of their kidneys, so I was feeling pretty blessed and optimistic. The testing to be cleared to receive a transplant is onerous and time consuming. I had a nuclear stress test, an echo cardiogram, an MRI, a CT scan, a PET scan, x-rays, a kidney biopsy, a bone marrow biopsy, and a lymph node biopsy. It took 5-months to complete all the tests.
The testing however revealed that I had renal-cell carcinoma (a malignant tumor) on my right kidney; as well as B-cell non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma. This basically eliminated me from further transplant consideration. So, here I was, facing two cancers, end-stage renal failure, sixteen wonderful donors, and no answers except dialysis. And that is when I had my Jehoshaphat moment.
Jehoshaphat was the king of Judah (2nd Chronicles 20). He and his people were surrounded by three armies. They did not know what to do and they were scared. Jehoshaphat said to God, “There is danger all around us. We are powerless against such vast armies. We don’t know what to do, but our eyes are on you.” Scared and against all odds, his eyes were on God. God then told Jehoshaphat through a prophet, “Do not be afraid, the battle is not yours, but God’s.”
And so that’s exactly what I decided to do. In the midst of being surrounded by cancer and kidney disease I focused my eyes on God. And when I did that in faith, I knew that the battle was not mine, but Gods. It was as if God said to me, “Steve, I’ve got this. I’ve heard all your prayers and the prayers of thousands of others on your behalf. Don’t spend another minute worrying or being anxious about your health. You don’t even need to pray about it anymore. I’ve got this!! I’ve known about your cancer and kidney disease for 25 years. The only thing that has changed is that now you know. So instead, I want you to write a book.”
Immediately I had a peace about my health – a peace that passes all understanding. I can’t even explain it. I have no idea whether I have another week left to live or 20 more years. But God has it – so what more could I ask.
Perhaps today you’re facing a Jehoshaphat moment. It may be a financial crisis, a health crisis, a lost job, a divorce, or the loss of a loved one. You’re scared, and you don’t know what to do. Be like Jehoshaphat and say, “God, my eyes are on you.” Put all your trust in Him and just see what happens. What’ve you got to lose?